Catchup: Reverb 10 (December 1st)

This year I signed up to be a part of Reverb 10 and Holidailies. I’ve done Holidailies before and have found it good to review the year. Technically, Holidailies doesn’t start until December 7 but I am an over achiever. I am copying Kyran for Reverb 10. Okay the prompts seem interesting and I think I need some introspection this year.

Catalysts is the word I pick. This year, a lot of things happened that were very big or big in the way it affected who I am. A childhood friend whom had been my confidante since moving back to Arkansas died this year. It was sudden. I didn’t even know she was sick. Well, I knew she had MS but I didn’t know she was in a position where death was imminent. Frankly, she didn’t either. Or she had maybe a month’s warning. She went into a coma and got an infection of some sort and the organs just started dying. I was working and although she was a friend of mine, I wasn’t really friends with her parents and so no one notified me until she was already in a coma. So she’s gone. She’s been gone about six months now. The aftermath has taught me about the integrity and the law. It has taught me about the lengths people will go to get what they want. It’s also taught me about selfishness and generosity.

Also, I have met quite a few new people this year who have the potential to be my friends well into 2011 and beyond. I’ve also managed to discover that other people whom I had invested much time and emotional energy were not good for me: either users who exploited my generous nature or just nasty meanspirited people.

So this year has definitely changed me in ways that I am not sure I will fully understand for quite some time.

Metamorphosis is the word I pick for 2011. I hope all of this outside events will alter me into something the same yet better, not unlike a caterpillar into a butterfly. I am working to not let these things destroy me but to make me into someone I am proud to be. That is my hope for 2011.