Sometimes, Melissa runs her legs. Sometimes, she runs her mouth.

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The thoughts we think when we’re alone

I just got out of an abusive situation.  When I say I got out of an abusive situation, I mean I literally left one night by packing up my car as full as it would go with the money in my pocket and never going back.   I have panic attacks just thinking about getting the rest of my stuff.  I have let that go.

Now I am staying in a friend’s house while I figure things out.

So I went from a house full of people where people would yell ferociously at me for looking at them wrong. [Don’t make that fucking face at me bitch] to one where I am the only person — my cat is here with me — alone with my thoughts.

Once, while my Mom and Dad were in the hospital, I had to put the trash out because it was trash day and I asked him to help me and he said, “A minute”  But I could hear the trash truck down the street– it has a very distinctive squeak when it stops to pick up trash and then it has another very distinctive grinding noise when it picks up the trash can and pours the trash in the back.  By my estimate, we had about five minutes to get it to the curb.

“Hurry we have minutes.”

“DON’T TELL ME WHAT TO DO YOU BITCH!” and he picked up a kitchen chair and raised it over his six feet six inches head and glared at me with eyes that had gone black with bottomless rage.

I knew I was going to die at that very moment.  I ended up screaming and calling the police.

The police didn’t arrest him. I knew my days were number.  It would be at least a year between that incident and the day I actually left the house.

No one did anything and all I got was excuses.

Then one day from a place very deep, I screamed, “I don’t deserve this.”

In the silence of this house where I finally feel safe.  I wonder things.

I wonder why my parents let it happen.  If one of the fundamental aspects of parenting is to make sure your kids are safe — make sure you don’t set yourself on fire, or run into the street, or eat your vegetables — then how do I reconcile that they knew I was being abused and didn’t do anything about it. They didn’t call the police.  Sometimes I was actively discouraged from calling the police.  Does this mean that they didn’t love me?  That whatever feeling they have for me wasn’t love?  Was it just codependence?  Why was it okay for my dignity and personal safety sacrificed?  Why was it okay for him to treat me this way but I had to be perfect.

Did they love me?  Was I innately unlovable?

This rabbit hole then got me thinking about my romantic relationships and lo and behold, it is messy.  I was, and probably still am, such a people pleaser.  I think about myself back then.

My high school boyfriend was this beautiful bronze man who was interested in theater.  He was gregarious and never met a stranger.  We went to different high schools and unbeknownst to me, he sent me a rose on the first day of school, “just because.”  He would also show up at my house four hours later than he said he would.   And we would fight because who shows up four hours late and expects to be treated like nothing is wrong. (apparently high school boyfriend)  He would ask, “Why can’t you have breasts like Crystal’s” a buxom girl in my class.  “they’re just not growing anymore.”

We broke up.  Then I wanted him back.  And I asked if he had cheated on me when we went out the last time.  He answered yes.  And I felt like a goddamn fool.

When guys cheat, it’s like we want something new. But then you know what happens? Your woman finds out, and now she’s new — she is never the same again. So now you have new, but you have a bad new.— Chris Rock

Does a person who cheat on you repeatedly love you? Did they ever love you in the first place? Why does a person who cheats that much keep you around? What was so wrong with me that he couldn’t just keep my dignity and bow out gracefully and let me move on instead of just feeling stupid. I think of all the conversations that we had and I wonder how much of them were lies, “Hey how was your weekend?” “Oh you know hanging out with friends.” (oh I was fucking someone who wasn’t you) If a person lies that much, then how well do I know him? Who is the person I dated? Why do people lie to me?

The guy after that, although in the new phases, hooked up with my “best friend” behind my back and everyone knew about it. There was a phase after he gave the “I don’t want to be romantically involved with you” (not that eloquently of course but you get it) speech and the time he actually told me he was dating my friend. I would go into friends’ dorm rooms and guys would say “you’re going to kill him.” and I would say “no we’re cool. I’m sad but we’re cool.”

I went to the cafeteria and sat down with a group of friends. Frank picks up two cafeteria cups and stacks them. He takes the top cup and then stacks it on top of another cafeteria cup. “No that didn’t happen,” said Jen. Then Ken takes the three cups and puts two cups bottom side up on the table side by side. He takes the third cup and straddles it on top of the two cups so that half of the cup is touching the one cup and the other half is touching the second cup. Jen then says, “That never happened.”

I later find out from another person sitting at the cafeteria table that day that the cup game was these “friends” discussing whether or not me, my best friend, and the guy ever had a threesome. They didn’t stop the conversation when I sat down. They kept going. If you would have asked them, they would have considered themselves my friends.
I later found out that another person had made a bet.

There’s something about finding out that your impending humiliation– and let’s be real finding out you’ve been cheated on is humiliating– has been fodder for bets and jokes. I did nothing wrong but trust people and I’m the butt of a joke with my pain being the punch line. Were any of these people ever my friends? Did any of these people ever love me? And why did I hang out with them so long? Why was my pain and degradation funny?

I wish I could say that the people after this were better but another guy turned out to be a rapist and I know this because he raped me. Then there is the guy who told me that I should kill myself while slamming his zoology dissection kit down on the coffee table between us.

THE GUY TOLD ME TO KILL MYSELF AND I STILL TRIED TO SEEK HIS APPROVAL AND BE FRIENDS WITH HIM

Y’ALL.

I keep thinking about the person I was then and the way I was raised. I kept trying to be friends with so many of the people listed after they did all of these things. When does forgiveness become debasement?

I wonder what was it about me that made people think it was acceptable to treat me this way. I wonder why I took so much shit. I wonder if I have better judgment now and I’m hesitant.

Then the thought that just rips through everything, “No one has ever loved you.” Look at it. Look at all the people who just wanted things from you and you sat there and was their friend and they just used you and laughed at you and they didn’t care about your feelings at all.

Then the other soul stopping realization.

“Do you even know what love is?”

And I have to stop and pause and think about the thrown chairs and holes in the door and the allowance of these activities to happen and answer to myself, “no. I’m not sure that I do.”

And I just sit and cry in this thought so hard and so long.

I know that love is the absence of a whole lot of shit that I have written on this page. And I know that life is messy and people will let you down and you get to forgive them and hopefully, they will forgive you when you mess up because you are human and you will mess up.

But when does constantly messing up become abuse? When does human frailty become a toxic personality?

If they aren’t “bad guys,” then why did they do all the “bad things” to me? What did I do to invite this shit into my house? And how do I not do it again? Because apparently, I keep doing it over and over and over again. This seeing the good in people without any sense of preservation.

And when is there this magical place called “over it” already?

Because the last thing I thought during a global pandemic would be that I would be thinking about any of these subjects or missing any of these people. And do I even miss these people or do I miss the happy person I was before? Was I ever happy? Or did growing up with people who kick your doors in leave a mark?

Apparently, yes.

Trompin Cotton

I was born and raised in a small town of about 10,000 people in southeast Arkansas.  My Dad was born and raised in the town.  My Mom grew up in a cotton field outside of a town of approximately 3000 people that is fifty miles away from my Dad’s hometown.  My Dad traveled for work and for what I can only guess was my Mom’s own sanity, she would drive me and my brother to my grandma’s house on the weekends.

In the middle of all of these cotton fields lived my Grandma, our first cousin once removed Joe and his family which included cousins close to my age, my great Aunt who was 15 years older than my grandma, and my first cousin once removed Martha and his family which also included cousins.  So going down to grandma’s house meant adventures with my cousins. ‘

The reason they lived in the middle of the cotton field was that the family owned all of the cotton fields surrounding the houses.  Both my grandma’s yard and my great Aunt’s yard had big bells in the front yard that we would ring for our own amusement.  On many occasions, we would discover that there was a hornet or wasp’s nest inside the bell and then we would run screaming bloody murder because obviously, we were going to be stung to death.  Mom would tell us tales of all the people who used to live in houses that no longer existed in the fields and the days that people used to pick the cotton and put it in these big burlap sacks.

One day when I was around 7, my cousins and I got to tromp cotton.  I’ll explain it. By the time I was seven, cotton was no longer picked by humans and instead was picked by these big tractors called “cotton pickers.”  The cotton picker was big and green with a cage in the back that would hold the cotton.  The driver would drove over the rows of cotton. The cotton picker would pick the cotton and put it in the back cage.  When the cage was full, the cotton picker would drive to a big metal trailer. (rectangle cage similar to what an 18 wheeler pulls but it was tight mesh-like a fence).  Then people would tromp the cotton.  Tromping cotton is a fancy term for stating that people would jump up on and down on the cotton in an attempt o make it more compact so that more cotton would fit in the trailer.

We got to jump up and down in a  trailer full of cotton.  There was a ladder on the outside of the trailer near the hitch.  We would climb up the ladder and the trailer would already be around 3/4 the way full and then we would jump.  It felt like landing on 10,000 cotton balls because that’s exactly what it was.  It was a feeling, unlike anything you’ve ever experienced.  We would climb up the side of the trailer and fall straight back like a trust exercise with the 10,000 cotton balls. We would climb back up and fall stomach first. Well, my cousin did that.  I was scared.  We would pick up fistfuls of cotton and throw them at each other and play chase in the cotton with our footing forever sinking in the mass of cotton.

Later when the trailer was full, we would climb in the cotton picker basket and we would get let poured back out into the cotton.  Little bits of cotton would stick on our sweat covered bodies.  Arkansas is incredibly humid in the summer and a light layer of sweat is de rigueur during this time.

It was so much fun but we only did it a couple of times and then cotton season was over.  There was an African American woman who would tromp with us and watch us.   I would find out later that helping with the field was her job.   Of course, my seven year old self didn’t realize that at the time. I just thought she was baby sitting us.

I think about that place quite a bit.  The whole tromping cotton and the little square houses that are now covered in ivy.  I think about the people who are no longer there. The people who would pick up the cotton and put it in sacks. The people who tromped the cotton. The people who listened for the bell to be run in the front yard.

It’s a surreal feeling to realize that your family is on a potentially problematic part of history.  I’ve never asked my grandma how much the people who picked the cotton were paid or how much the people who weren’t me and my cousins were paid to tromp the cotton.  I know the houses are gone and the people moved away and the town that was approximately four thousand or so when I was a kid is now maybe 2,000.

One Christmas, I had visited a friend from college and his Dad owned the cotton gin– the place where the cotton is taken when you’re done picking it.  They process it and then it goes to the factory.  I told him the tale of how we used to tromp cotton as kids.  “Oh, they have a machine that does that now.” he responded.

Poof.

A machine does that now.

Like that, it’s over.

Now there are big cotton fields and a handful of people who operate the machines that perform all the functions.  That is farming now.

 

 

 

 

Again! again

It seems to be a habit that I start the Holidailies thing only to crash and burn but this is the year to go all Laura Ingalls Wilder and write the stories.

This is 2020. No one, including me, is going anywhere so this might be the opportunity to tell the stories. I have written off and on for over 20 years. Certain incidents in my life have lead me to the conclusion that I want to write more. Why does anyone write? I don’t know. Maybe that is something to explore in this space. I look forward to seeing what others have to write and go on.

The Favorites of 2019



I write this with the caveat that I have not been the “culture vulture”/consumer of pop culture that I usually am due to a whole host of factors that I may or may not share at a later date. [This year did, in fact, suck]  This was also a hard year for me with many challenges so I didn’t go out much either.   That is why I am not doing top 10 lists.  This is a long-winded paragraph to say I didn’t get out much in 2019.    Also, I don’t feel like expending the mental energy to rank anything although most of these do have a definite “number one.”

Another caveat, I live in Arkansas and apparently Parasite came to Arkansas for one week only.  This movie was in the state for one week only and I didn’t get any notice until the last day.  I had a work conflict for said last day.  Now it is gone.  GONE.  I keep telling people that Arkansas is not ass-backward and then something like this happens.   Bless their hearts.

 

MOVIES

  • Booksmart
  • Little Women

Booksmart will be a cult classic.  It didn’t get the numbers in the theater it deserved but I predict people will find it on streaming services soon.

BOOKS

  • Becoming by Michelle Obama
  • Pachinko by Min Jin Lee
  • The Secret History by Donna Tartt
  • This Will Only Hurt a Little by Busy Philipps

This is the year I, to my embarrassment, finally got around to reading Donna Tartt’s The Secret History so I am adding it to this list.

 

MUSIC

At my house, 2019 was the Billie Eilish and Lizzo show.  Both of these women are ridiculously talented and I adored numerous songs on each of these ladies’ respective albums.  Also, due to Spotify and satellite radio, I didn’t listen to that much new music.

  • All of Lizzo
  • All of Billie Eilish
  • Ready to Let Go by Cage the Elephant
  • Lover by Taylor Swift
  • Uptown Road by Lil Nas

 

 

 

TV

  • Fleabag
  • Marvelous Mrs. Maisel
  • Crazy Ex-Girlfriend
  • John Mulaney and the Sack Lunch Bunch
  • Barry
  • This is Us
  • Russian Doll
  • Unbreakable Kimmie Schmidt
  • Dickinson
  • Mindhunter

This was a year of great television but 2019 was the year of the Fleabag.  It is on everyone’s list and I am not sure I could say anything that hasn’t been said somewhere else.  It is simply a masterpiece.

This was also a personally heavy year so I didn’t seek out dramas.  So yeah, I’ll watch the good dramas of 2019 later.

 

 

 

 

 

The last Christmas Eve ever.



Christmas Eve has always been the best day of the year.  When we were kids, Mom and Dad would take us to my grandma’s house on December 23rd or a couple of days earlier.  [My Mom’s parents were Grandma and Grandpa.  My Dad’s parents were Mammaw and Pappaw. —Melissa]   Grandma comes from a long line of cotton farmers and she lives five miles outside of a small town with a population of approximately a thousand in Arkansas.  In the midst of all these cotton fields are four houses on the same side of the road in a half-mile line that housed the descendants of my great grandmother.   Mom and Grandma would bake cookies and cakes.  Sometimes, they would let me help.  My brother and I would spend those days running up and down the half-mile of road to my cousins’ house.    We would play. Sometimes we would get on our bikes and ride down another mile in the opposite direction to my cousin Sonya’s grandma Pee Wee’s house.  Then we would go into Sonny’s shop with all the power tools and saws and talk to Sonny.  Sonny would regale us with tall tales involving snakes that bit off his fingers which were terrifying since three of his fingers on his hand only went to the first knuckle.

On Christmas Eve, Mom and Grandma would cook a ham and make pimento and cheese along with a wide variety of appetizers and sweets.    We would eat ham and/or pimento and cheese sandwiches and then the family would open up all the gifts to make room under the tree for the presents Santa was going to bring later that night.   The Family was my Grandma and Grandpa, my Mom and Dad, my little brother, and my Aunt Iona.  Sometimes Iona’s roommate Debra would show up.  We would have to wait for my Aunt Iona to drive in from Little Rock and she would bring in her presents and frankly, some of Grandma’s presents in a big black trash bag.  Christmas Eve didn’t officially arrive until she arrived.

My cousins Martha and Sonny and their kids Sonya and Leslie would come over and there would be some liquor.  The house was filled with laughter, wadded wrapping paper, and toys.  We would listen to crazy stories, eat tons of food, and play.  Then we would go to bed so that Santa wouldn’t see us.  Mom said that if Santa saw us we wouldn’t get our presents because spying on people was naughty.  I don’t know if my Mom was purposefully ironic but I still laugh about that until this day.

The next morning, we would wake up and find the gifts Santa had left us.  Grandma and Mom would cook turkey and dressing and we would eat in the afternoon.  Then we would run to my Grandma’s sister Mooney’s house and see what presents my cousins Laura, Julia, Ben, and Dan got.  Then we would run further down the road and see what Sonya and Leslie got.  It was a lootathon.  Eventually, we would make it back home and sleep like we had been awake a thousand years because in kid years, we had been.

Over the years, the tradition morphed.  Grandpa died when I was six and eventually Grandma’s friend Bud would spend Christmas eve with us.   He would bring Grandma this three-pound box of cheap chocolate candies from Walmart that we would nosh throughout the evening.  He was loud and funny.   Then the kids eventually heard an alternative theory of Santa and didn’t get presents from him on Christmas Day.  He gave those presents to Mom and Dad and we opened all of our presents on Christmas Eve.  Sonya and Leslie got married and as such started spending Christmases with their spouses.  Sonny and Martha started using Christmas Eve to prepare for their own grandchildren.  Iona started having severe back problems and couldn’t sleep on the couch anymore.  When Bud died, she quit coming down for Christmas Eve.

Now in 2019, my Grandma is 90.  She is in a wheelchair and can’t really cook as much due to her inability to stand.   My Mom is seventy and a little tired from taking care of my Dad.  My Dad has dementia/Alzheimer’s.  I honestly don’t know his official diagnosis.  I know that he doesn’t know what day it is most of the time.  He forgets when he eats.  He recognizes me but he, on more than one occasion, has asked me, “Missy.  When did you get gray hair?”  Well, I started getting gray hair when I was 35.  I am 46 now.  It’s not histrionic to conclude that this might be the last Christmas Eve that my father recognizes me at all.

This is the last Christmas Eve ever, isn’t it?  I don’t want to jinx anything or be unnecessarily pessimistic but this is really it.  Another one will be a miracle and sometimes miracles happen.  Stubborn jackassery is a dominant trait in my family’s gene pool as well as longevity.  My Grandma’s sister lived to be over 100 but realistically, this is it.

This is the last Christmas Eve and I don’t want it to be the last one.  I don’t want it to be the end.  And yet it’s the end.

I’ve always been a woman who valued her independence more than anything but what I wouldn’t give to have someone to hold my hand during these next couple of days.  This is so hard but I know what I must do.  I need to get up, pack, put on some makeup, get in the car, and be Daddy’s little girl on Christmas eve one last time.

Merry Christmas everyone.

 

 

 

 

Festivus



How do I explain Festivus to someone with Alzheimer’s?  Crap this might be harder than I thought.

Well Melissa, you spent quite an astonishing amount of time watching television and one of the shows that you watched regularly was called Seinfield.  It was the story of four people engaged in a Sartrean level of dysfunctional enmeshment named respectively Jerry, George, Elaine, and Kramer.

Okay, that was pretentious bullshit.

It was the story of a comedian whose claim to fame was poking fun at the minutiae of life and his three friends bumbling through life:  Jerry, George, Elaine, and Kramer.  George’s parents were extremely reactive and weren’t really into Christianity or Judaism so they made up their own holiday called Festivus.

Oh fuck this shit, I’ll just put a link to the Wikipedia page and call it a day.

But today is Festivus and this is the airing of the grievances for 2019.

  • People who do not put their buggies in the buggy space in parking lots.  Walmart and other shopping areas were nice enough to make a designated space for buggies.  They do this so that cars will not be damaged.  The least you could do is not be all wrapped up in yourself and think of your fellow shoppers who now have to drive like the parking lot is an obstacle course in order to buy cheap overprized crap.
  • Democratic Party of Arkansas.  You are a complete hot mess.  First, there is this issue with misappropriation and how you got your BFFs to do the audit.  THEN!  You managed to not vet Josh Mahony and he withdrew his Senate campaign after the deadline because his employment records were spotty and now there is no Democratic opponent against Tom Cotton.   I still haven’t gotten a satisfactory explanation of how this happened. In fact, I haven’t gotten an explanation at all.   This shouldn’t be your first rodeo and you’re acting like its amateur hour.  Tom Cotton had Koch money which means he had money to dig through his opponent’s record with a fine-tooth comb.  This was the race where the opponent would dig and dig and dig figure out that you pinched a girl’s butt in kindergarten and somehow you couldn’t figure out that Mahoney didn’t have a regular job and lied about it on campaign forms.  You ask for his tax forms. Did you ask for his tax forms?  Who did what and when?  I want an explanation for this. I want a detailed explanation of this.  I want names.  There isn’t enough ink. It’s almost midnight. I’m going to put a pin in this and come back to it.
  • Mom and Dad, you don’t see me.  You really don’t see me.
  • Bill Hader.  Tulsa, Oklahoma is the 50th largest metropolitan city in America.  AND YET! you talk about your hometown like it is a rural outpost in Yoknapatawpha County.  Was deer season a school holiday in Tulsa?  I don’t think so.  Did you get stuck behind a tractor driving to school?  Did you get attacked by a crazed rooster named uncle Jesse?  You sure as hell didn’t shit in an outhouse in Tulsa Oklahoma, did you Bill?
  • Self, quit it with the procrastination.

 

 

I’m back



If Eddie Murphy can come back and host Saturday Night Live after 35 years, I can get my ass on the laptop and start posting here again.

I intended last year to start writing stories that I needed to write down because my Dad, my paternal grandfather, and my paternal great grandmother all died of Alzheimer’s disease.  I’m slowly coming to the conclusion that I am going to need some reminding regarding who the hell I am when I get old.  So consider these posts letters to my old memory addled self.   I also just want to write more.  I like doing it and I want more practice in any writing that isn’t’ legal writing.    I cannot promise for certain whether these posts will be more expository or narrative.

I originally bought this domain and entitled this blog “Melissa Runs” because I actually did run in races with half marathons being my longest distance quite a bit and used this space to serve as a diary/brag book for those.   It has been several years since I have run a half marathon and would like to get back to doing that.  this is one of my “life goals” for 2020.  Sure let’s call it that.

Once upon a time, a wise and brazen man named Paul said my posts were little lagniappes to his busy week.   Paul was also prone to nonsense and prodigious flattery to women.   We’ll see.

 

 

2018 recap and favorites



2018 was so over the top that all I want to do to bring in the New Year is relax and that is exactly what I am going to do.

For me, this was a year of personal growth and change.  I had a breast cancer scare that got me in touch with my mortality in a way that freaked me the hell out.  I got to do a lot of introspection over that time and realized that there are some things about my life that I don’t like.  I really would like to make some changes.  Then I discovered that my Dad’s memory is going and had the cold reality that our little family was going to change forever.  I also grieved that I was never going to have my On Golden Pond moment with my Dad.  My relationship with my Dad has always been a little strained.   It might be less strained in the future but because he has forgotten the myriad of reasons why he hates me.  Maybe that’s for the best.  I was hoping for a reconciliation that will never come.  Also, my cat, Buddha Butt, died.  he was 11.

I also had challenges with work and volunteer opportunities.  For all the progress women have made, women still have a way to go.  The only reason I can gather for certain reactions are bona fide sexism and boy am I disenchanted about that.

The Kavanaugh hearings triggered me in a way that I still haven’t recovered.  Yes, I do have PTSD.  Thanks for asking. I do mean this literally in the clinical sense of the term.  It didn’t help that I had recently had surgery at the time and was ordered to rest during this time.

There were good things. I had good times hanging out with my friends and the Drinking Liberally crew.   My other cat, Jojo Dancer. , was a snuggly source of comfort.  I read some books, watched some movies, and enjoyed some television.

Here are some of my favorites.

TV

  • Crazy Ex Girlfriend
  • Big Mouth
  • The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina
  • Kid Gorgeous at Radio City (John Mulaney)

Movies

  • Three Identical Strangers
  • Call Me By Your Name (I saw it in early 2018. It was released around Christmas)
  • Won’t You Be My Neighbor
  • Crazy Rich Asians
  • Leave No Trace

Books

  • Hillbilly Elegy
  • The Last Black Unicorn
  • I Will Follow you into the Dark

Well that was a break



Sometimes, life does not work out the way you expect.  You make plans and then something happens to completely obliterate those plans.    I was in the hospital for a couple of days.   Depression lies.  Depression told some whoppers.  Apparently, I need to go in for a sleep study at a later date.   I do feel a lot better but it threw me off the Holidailies rhythm.

I am writing the stories in long form and will be publishing them in bulk, if I can get away with it.  We’ll see.

 

The list of fives



I am tired. Life got in the way so let’s do random trivia.

Five favorite movies.

  1. Splendor in the Grass.  This movie is timeless.   It stars Natalie Wood and Warren Beatty.  When your Mom talks about how Warren Beatty was soo sexy and had sex with all the women, she was referring to this Warren Beatty.   it’s about first love, sexuality, mental illness, and class warfare set in pre-depression era Kansas.
  2. Shawshank Redeption Get busy living or get busy dying. Yeah, everybody knows this movie.
  3. Bring It On.   I am not ashamed. I love this cheerleader movie.  It also has a great message about cultural appropriation.  It’s also catchy as hell.
  4. Silence of the Lambs Trivia.  I became a psych major because I wanted to be Clarice Starling.
  5. Mary Poppins

Five Favorite Foods

  1.  Pastrami on Rye at Katz’s Delicatessen in NYC. Yes this sandwich is worth the hype.
  2. Black bean quesadillas.  This is my go to quick meal at the house.
  3. Chicken tikka masala.  I love Indian food.  here is this one.
  4. Tiramisu.  my favorite desert.
  5. red hots.  my favorite candy.  hot cinnamon bytes

Five favorite books

  1. Lolita by Vladimir Nabakov
  2. The Sound and the Fury by William Faulkner.  (Caddy smelled like trees)
  3. Making Faces by Kevin Aucoin (I learned how to do makeup from this. My Mom was not a girly girl by any stretch of the imagination)
  4. Prozac Nation by Elizabeth Wurtzel  (As a person who suffers from depression, I found my voice)
  5. Little House on the Prairie by Laura Ingalls Wilder.

Five favorite pieces of art.

  1. Fishing Kitty by Alexander Calder
  2. Hide and Seek by James Tissot
  3. The Matisse Cut Outs
  4. Little Dancer of Fourteen  by Edgar Degas
  5. The Swing by Fragonard
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